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Name:Sarah Marie.
Residence:Dirty Nu-[Metal] Jerz.
Age:Sixteen.
Sexuality:Heterosexual.
Height:5'6''
School:Delaware Valley Regional High School.
Grade: Sophomore.
Lover: Too many.
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Friends&Grammar&Straws.
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You.
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Bands that you've never heard of before &you would probably hate.
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Admit it!
Despite your pseudo-bohemian appearance and vaguely leftist doctrine of beliefs. You know nothing about art or sex. That you couldn’t read in any trendy New York underground fashion magazine. Prototypical non-conformist. You are a vacuous soldier of the thrift store Gestapo. You adhere to a set of standards and tastes. That appear to be determined by an unseen panel of hipster judges BULLSHIT. Giving a thumbs up or thumbs down to incoming and outgoing trends and styles of music and art. Go analog baby, you’re so post-modern. You’re diving face forward into a antiquated path. It’s disgusting, its offensive, don’t stick your nose up at me. What do you have to say for yourself? You spend your time sitting in circles with your friends, pontificating to each other, forever competing for that one moment of self-aggrandizing glory, in which you hog the intellectual spotlight, holding dominion over the entire shallow pointless conversation. Oh, we’re not worthy. When you walk by a group of quote-unquote normal people, you chuckle to yourself patting yourself on the back as you scoff. It's the same superiority complex shared by the high school jocks who made your life a living hell and makes you a slave to the competitive capitalist dogma, you spend every moment of your waking life bitching about. What do you have to say for yourself? Because I’m proud of my life and the things that I have done, proud of myself and the loner I’ve become. You’re free to whine, it will not get you far. I do just fine, my car and my guitar. Well let me tell you this, I am shamelessly self-involved. I spend hours in front of the mirror, making my hair elegantly disheveled. I worry about how this album will sell because I believe it will determine the amount of sex I will have in the future. I self medicate with drugs and alcohol to treat my extreme social anxiety. You are a faker. Admit it. You are a fraud. Admit it. Yeah, you’re living a lie. Your life is living a lie. You don’t impress me. Admit it. You don’t intimidate me. Admit it. Why don’t you bow down, get on the ground, walk this fucking plank. Because I’m proud of my life and the things that I have done, proud of myself and the loner I’ve become. You’re free to whine, it will not get you far. I do just fine, my car and my guitar. I drift drift drift drift drift. I drift drift drift drift drift. And I am done with this. I wanna taste the breeze of every great city. My car and my guitar. My car and my guitar. So you'll come to be, made of these, urgent unfulfilled. Oh no no no no no. When I'm dead I'll rest. When I'm dead I'll rest way still. When I'm dead I'll rest, I'll rest. When I'm dead I'll rest, I'll rest. When I'm dead I'll rest, I'll rest.
When I'm dead I'll rest, I'll rest.
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[Sunday
October 1st, 2006
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new. i need a new start.
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[Tuesday
May 9th, 2006
6:01pm
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bridge.
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the days are horizontal lately. [Wednesday
May 3rd, 2006
9:35pm
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[ mood | adventurous ]
[ music | the virus. ]




I miss my sister.

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[Friday
January 27th, 2006
6:53pm
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Don't expect this to be the kind of story that goes: and then, and then, and then. What happens here will have more of that fashion magazine feel, a Vogue or a Glamour magazine chaos with page numbers on every second or fifth or third page. Perfume cards falling out, and full-page naked women coming out of nowhere to sell you make-up. Don't look for a contents page, buried magazine-style twenty pages back from the front. Don't expect to find anything right off. There isn't a real pattern to anything, either. Stories will start and then, three paragraphs later:
Jump to page whatever.
Then, jump back.
This will be ten thousand fashion seperates that mix and match to create maybe five tasteful outfits. A million trendy accessories, scarves and belts, shoes and hats and gloves, and no real clothes to wear them with. And you really, really need to get used to that feeling, here, on the freeway, at work, in your marriage. This is the world that we live in. Just go with the prompts.

Jump back twenty years to the white house where I grew up with my father shooting super-8 movies of my brother and me running around the yard.
Jump to present time with my folks sitting on lawn chairs at night, watching the same super-8 movies projected on the white side of the same white house, twenty years later. The house is the same, the yard the same, the windows projected in the movies lined up just perfect with the real windows, the movie grass aligned with the real grass, and my movie-projected brother and me being toddlers and running around wild for the camera.
Jump to my brother being all miserable and dead from the big plague of AIDS.

Just remember, the same as a spectacular Vogue magazine, remember that no matter how close you follow the jumps:
Continued on page whatever.
No matter how careful you are, there's going to be the sense that you missed something, the collapsed feeling under your skin you didn't experience it all. There's that fallen heart feeling under your skin that you rushed right through the moments where you should have been paying attention.
Well, get used to that feeling. That's how your whole life will feel some day. This is all practice. None of this matters. We're just warming up.
Jump to here and now.
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